Present Position: 8 of Swords (reversed) - A terrible decision, or a feeling of being "split" has been overcome, a decision has been made or been made for you... (something about indecision and being torn in two... number 8 is significant somehow)
not really sure on this...might know what the 8's mean
Immediate Influences: The World - Success and achievement (or is it completion?? I'm feeling like you've decided to start "listening" to your instincts whereas before you may not have been... which may have been contributing to your uneasiness... it is hard to feel good about ourselves when we don't really trust ourselves...) good things coming... (something about "fruit" too
also, the number 21 is significant somehow...)
Your Life: Knight of Swords - (This may be your DH.. is he deployed? I have a hard time keeping track of which are and which are not
lol also, does he fly? or work with flights somehow? something about flying...) He's been somewhat into himself, I'm getting a feeling of neglect somehow... not sure if this is you or if this is him...
DH is deployed just flew out of Texas about a week ago
Root of the Reading: Knight of Cups - (ok, now I'm confused... perhaps one is your man as he IS and one is how you would like him to be??
) Love, Romance (a proposal?? hmmmm are you married?? ) New possibilities in a relationship.... (sorry, I'm
)
yep I'm married so kinda confused on this
Past Influences: Page of Wands (reversed) - Creativity that was "blocked" some how... a sort of light and airy dreamy person who was forced to change... (something about a lost dream??
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no clue
Future Influences: 8 of Pentacles - (also known as the "talent" card) Discovery of new talent or development of skills... put your gifts to good use (again with the number 8?? what is up with the 8s??) Hard work will pay off
I just started going back to school for interior design
Your Feelings: The Moon - (something about the number 28... another 8?? so strange...) uncertainty... you are not sure what is real and what is not... I see you having a hard time focusing on reality vs. illusion (as if there is a person around you, who may NOT be what they appear to be... worry, guilt that you even THINK that they may be fake.... trust your intuition...)
I never know when to believe my son with his drug problems etc thats all that comes to mind here
Immediate Influences: 5 of Cups - Sorrow, dissapointment... (someone near you is a gloomy gus... or is this you? this could also be the result of the decision in card 1... I'm not really sure... ) a deep sense of loss and worry about a choice that was made (perhaps a poor choice?)
Hopes & Fears: The Empress (reversed) - (pregnancy? Are you afraid that you are or afraid that it won't happen? I can't tell here... it's almost as if you want it but fear it won't happen or you DON'T want it but are afraid that you already are... not sure hun... either that or this is ANOTHER mother near you or in your life... boy you SURE are making me work to see this... lol. Don't worry, I can't "see" things that you don't want to let me see silly
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I'd love to have more kids but I can't
Outcome: The Magician - There is a trickster around you.. someone is not who or what they are making themselves out to be.. be very careful and protect yourself...
I keep coming back to this all day trying to put meaning to everything so I may figure more out later. I really treid keeping myself open the past few weeks because others have had a hard time reading me I'm not sure why....
lol also, does he fly? or work with flights somehow? something about flying...) He's been somewhat into himself, I'm getting a feeling of neglect somehow... not sure if this is you or if this is him...