Ok, well at least I know it wasn't just me... I'm going to do the reading on the original cards and then pull some more cards to do a more "recent" 4 card spread to see if anything has changed since I drew the first set. (Where ARE you girlie.. haven't seen you online for a bit...)
Present Position: Knight of Swords - Dramatic Change, upheaval... a search for intellectual stimulation (are you in a relationship right now or are you looking for one?)
Immediate Influences: King of Cups (reversed) - A man who is emotionally "immature"... cannont connect with anyone emotionally... self-absorbed (which is why I asked if Demon-Dad was still around... I think this is him... could be wrong...)
Your Life: Ace of Wands (reversed) - A lack of energy, a lack of passion... (this doesn't seem normal for you... depression??)
Root of the Reading: 10 of Swords (reversed) - An ending that SHOULD be happening but isn't... there is something in your life that YOU know has gone past it's prime, but continue to hold on to... let it go, whatever it is... what is to come is much better... you can't have the promise of a new beginning, if you don't let go of what you know needs to end...
Past Influences: 10 of Wands (reversed) - (is there something significant about this number?? something significant about 10??) Hmmm.. this seems strange... a time in your life where you were very free... had few responsibilities (doesnt' seem to make sense to me... that doesn't sound quite right....) you were bored??
Future Influences: The Star - (number 27 is here... hey Demon, how old are you?) Hope, good fortune and FAITH... a renewed sense of purpose, faith in yourself, new found confidence and security (I think Demon will have some part to play in this...)
Your Feelings: 4 of Wands (reversed) - You need a BREAK... disillusionment, unhappiness... stunted creativity... instability... take some time out for you... run away from the world for a little while .... you need some YOU time...
Immediate Influences: The World (reversed) - (significance of #21) A "peak" ... a point where you have reaced a pinnacle... this is YOUR time... you know what needs to be done, but cannot bring yourself to do it.. a part of your life has reached it's peak and now it is time to move on... once the top of a mountain has been reached.... we must look for other mountains to climb... when we stop striving, we stop growing.... you've got so much more that you are capable of...
Hopes & Fears: 2 of Wands (reversed) - You are ready to do something with the "inspiration" or new beginning represented in the "Ace of Wands" .. but you want it AND you fear it.... take stock of your situatin and plan ahead... where do you go from here? opportunity is knocking... will you take it? circumstance are set to improve but it is up to you to set this wheel in motion..
Outcome: Knight of Pentacles (reversed) - (something about "HIM" and not giving you "the" money... not sure what that means... I'm a little "foggy" today.. but these cards are old...) SLLLLLOOOOOWWW down .... jumping the gun will not get you the results that you are looking for... you need to think, plan carefully, and THEN move.... in time you will achieve what you are hoping to, but only if you take your time and know that if you move too fast... you will lose or miss out on this...
I hope that makes sense, b/c when I pulled these cards (heck, even NOW...) they just don't feel quite "right" for her... also, the high number of reversed cards indicates a feeling that you've lost control... this is NOT true... you are the master of your destiny... take back the reins... also LOTS of fire and air cards... conflict.. one fuels the other..
Ok NEW cards...
What's at hand: 3 of Cups (reversed) - A reunion or celebration that does not bring the joy that you wish it did...
Past Influences: Knight of Swords (reversed) - (WHO is this?? this man is on your mind a LOT)
Something to think about: 7 of Wands (reversed) - though you may FEEL as if you are being "attacked" or mistreated, this is only your perception and is not what is really happening... (hope this makes sense to you..)
What is to come: 4 of Swords - Rest, recuperation, retreat... this stressful situation WILL end andyou will need time to recover and regain your strength... take time for you...
I hope this holds meaning for you
Take care,
Christina
(I get a DISTINCT sense of DEEP anxiety... what is going on??)