If it doesn't make sense, then we can try another layout. sound ok?
Present Position: 6 of cups (reversed) - There is something about an ending of a dream, or a perceived ending/death of a dream... also a feeling of stress related to a past event or friend that is making a reappearance. Some sadness? I feel like it is not normal for you to be sad, but that you have been very sad....
Immediate Influence: The Star (reversed) - (Someting is significant about the number 27) A loss of hope or a lapse of faith (could be because I've taken so long to get your Tarot reading back to you? though it doesn't feel as mild as something like that would be... feels "deeper" somehow) Also not feeling very "special" or significant...
Your Life: 10 of Pentacles - Interesting.. you have some security and the desire to create permanence in your life.... when I "say" "interesting", it's interesting in the context of the other cards before you... were you expecting something that did not happen and are somewhat disappointed? (something BESIDES your tarot reading
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Root of the Reading: 3 of wands - Ah, there is still some optimism, still some hope in you. It may be that journaling or expressing what you are feeling in a poem or letter (or email) will help to reinforce those feelings for you...
Influences of the past: 2 of Pentacles - You were very carefree... there is increased sense of responsibility around you now... you are not as footloose as you used to be ... "growing up" (didn't you just have a birthday too?
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Future Influences: Ace of Swords (reversed) - Don't give in to others too easily. Make sure that you are heard and that YOU know that your opinion (your "vote" AND your "voice" ) matter in decisions that SHOULD be made jointly...
Your feelings: 5 of Wands (reversed) - Competition in which no one really wins (and in this case, you seem to be very much on the losing end)... unhealthy bickering or fighting.
Outside Influences: Strength (reversed) - Someone seems to be "sapping" your energy or your strength... a person who, unintentionally, makes you very weary... I'm not sure if it's a gloomy attitude that is bringing you down.... but something of that nature is making you very .... tired, almost world weary.
Hopes and Fears: Temperance - You need balance and compromise, but are not sure at all that the person you need it from will be willing to meet you half way.
Outcome: 7 of Cups - An unrealistic choice.... which is not necessarily what YOU desire... someone will be making a choice that you do not like.. for you, unless you make yourself heard...
Remember that a partnership is just that ... a PARTNERSHIP... two working in cooperation and confidence as one....
You have a right to have your concerns heard and they hold merit... make sure that YOU know that well...
I hope this holds meaning for you hun (cards were much easier to read today...)
Keep in mind, if there are things going on that you are worried about people "seeing" or "knowing" or things that you are trying to hide... it will make it harder for me to read you... you need to make sure that you are "open" to it.
~ Christina
