I'm a bit rusty, and had a hard time focusing on you while shuffling, so if I am WAAAAY off base, it may be that someone was intruding on my thoughts.
If so, let me know and I will try again.
Present Position- The High Priestess (reversed): I get as sense of not feeling as "feminine" as you would like to feel... a sense that there are things going on that are forcing you to place your innner goddess on the back burner... the word busy repeats over and over in my mind.
Immediate Influences - 7 of cups: (keep in mind that the 7 here is significant and feels like a date...) You are precariously balancing the different aspects of your life... a shift or a bit too much added on any of these angles will tip the scales and send things tumbling into chaos and confusion. Do NOT neglect yourself or overlook your needs... this is important.
Your Life: The Devil (reversed): Where has the fun gone? The spirit? Your fire? A dampening of the spirit?
Root of the Reading - King of Wands (reversed): Someone significant who has left or is "leaving" your life... perhaps they are not feeling as big a part of your life as they used to... this is not quite clear, but feels like a male. Feelings of neglect... someone bright and passionate... again something of fire that has gone out.
Past Influences - Page of Cups (reversed): Not a lack of love, but of romance... feelings of not having the "trappings" of love... the romantic gestures that remind us that we are cherished and wanted.
Future Influences - 8 of Pentacles (reversed): A warning... your achievements may not turn out to be as fulfilling as you anticipate they would be. There is a possibility that you will regret some of the sacrifices that you have made in attaining your goals.
Your Feelings - The Hermit (reversed): Look within yourself... soul searching is needed... take time for yourself.. it may seem daunting or frightening to face what you are not quite willing to look at just yet... I think this is perhaps why you are so busy... business keeps you from facing something, allows you to set it aside and put it at low priority... face yourself and see your life with new eyes.
Outside Influences - 9 of Pentacles: Has there been a promotion? Or an increase in responsibilities with recognition of your efforts... ask yourself if it is worth it?
Hopes and Fears - The Star: a guide... look to your future and have faith that hope and healing are coming your way... follow your star... find your path.
Outcome - Ace of Swords: Sharp, mind clearing... a decision to be made... to cut something out, or to let something in? The ball is in your court, the sword is in your hand.
I get that you have a lot of different things going on and people putting some pressure on you... make sure that you take time out to cherish and take care of yourself.
I hope this holds meaning for you!
~ C
